juStiFiCatiOn

According to her shee wazz not knowing that I am in love with her…

From the last 6 monthss myy I am bzzy wth a grll.. chatted arund 11000.. i.e arund eleven thousand messages in only 3 months.. updating her each nd every information off my life.. wtss happening.. proposed 4-5 times in fb.. ndd shee alwayzz given a excused tht she don’t want to spoil friendship… ndd smetimess abused too.. well I hated herr tht time..

Whatever shee wished I did for that.. rghtt fromm wtt we planned before meeting.. everything I did… almost every wished I fulfilled her..

praying for her in delhi so that shee wil be selected for training..nd after thtt shee wazz selected.. went again to give thanxx giving flower in that temple.. soo that nythingg wrong doesn’t happened.. when I went Vaishno devi.. as everyone know u can see god only for few seconds… there too I prayed for herr… (frstt time for somebody else other than myy family..) well time wz less soo wzz unable too ask m9 wishess nicely.. whatever be…

donno which type off friendship shee thinks it is…. Whnn shee wzz in gurgao.. shee used to tell tht she hdd nott eaten food.. I used too tell if I wudd be there I will surely make for her…tht time I wzz so ill… wzz ntt allowed too talk in phonee .. hidded evrythingg… wzz act serious… btt still I talked.. ndd talked.. used too wake for whole nghtt bcozz I hvv too call her in morning to wake…herr soo that shee wil bee nott late…

which typee off friendhipp ittt wzz!!!
nww u knoww abtt myy naturee tht i gottt a attitude tht i never go back forr someone.. btt donno wtt u did... i alwayzz ..well i gott thzz attitude till noww.. i never listnedd to any1..too noo order..frmm any1.......... btttt donno u were exception..

Fighted wthh so many frndzz.. slapped myy closest frnd… told a grll beach infrontt off  whole classs..

Missed ntt act left @leastt (I know it cann bee mre thnn tht iff I wudd hv told yess to her) MY FIRST kiss with a soo mchh sexy girll.. 
whoo will miss sch a chance.. btt I simply ignoredd her…nlyy forr u..

(dntt think thzz guy thinks abtt kiss ndd all stuffs nly..i am giving emphasiss bcozz I wntt to realize myself tht I amm soo fool… going to complete myy teenss ndd didntt hv myy frstt gff too.. ndd hdd a 2 timee heartbreak  bcozz I wzz searching for som1 whoo really mean itt…til 12^th I thought it’s a waist..ndd wzz too bzyy in myy studezz.. ndd whn in cooll.. so many mean people… made everything fake…)

Lemme remind u.. tht in fb arund 5 timess u hv accepted tht I am in love with you.. ndd still u tell tht i never toldd.. 
touchingg urr cheeks.. leavingg u till bus stand.. ndd its ntt tht my xmm wzz finished.. which friend do thz all stuffs..

I never blame you butt thzz time I am damn serious… ndd I really mean thzz statement….  personally i wud hvv never fallen forr u btt U ALWAYSS MADEE ME FALL FORR YOU.. AFTER YOUU HAD A BOYFRIEND THENN ALSOO YOUU FLIRTED IN THE SAME WAY LIKE EARLIER.. CHECK UR MESSAGE….”donno y.. theyy wayy u sed to speak.. care..

I doonno whoo have this typee of friend ndd hww anyone can tell thzz wzz friendship..ndd tht alsoo u tell tht acc.. to u u were knowing tht i dont like u.. thnn y i wzz doingg thesee all stuffs... thszz mchh izz ntt donee in frndship..tht alsoo on9 frndship.. >>>>>

Soo finally girll made boyfriend ,, bcozz thee friend was nott talking frm last 3 dayz… wtt a grll .. left d boyy whoo wzz wth her for last 100 dayzz for a guy … whom shee camee very close in 15 dayz.. rght..!! ndd accumulatedd thzz mchh feelingg forr himm.. 

 I wz knowing everything abtt u both ….btt still I ignored .. I thought someday u will tell..

THIS PARA ISS GONNA HURT YOU..

(don’t worry I hv nt written tht mchh .. btt I hvv given hint tht I know mre than th..)

..I wzz knowing too tht  when I wzz caring for you.. somebody else wazz also there.. whom u were flirting……..btt I ignored… till 8^th jan..

WHENN I THOUGHTT U R GETTINGG CONFUSED DAY BY DAY.. @A SAME TIME TWO GUYY WZZ TOUGH SOO  I THOUGHT GIVE YOU SOME TIME.. WELL DEEP INSIDE MYY HEART I WZZ KNOWING THAT U WIL NOT ACCEPT HIMM… BUTT AS A ENGINEERING STUDENT. I WZ DAMN SURE U R GOING TO BE COMMITED.. SOO I  STOPPED TALKING.. for 2 day.. btt wttt .........................................……….............................................................................................................................................................................
y i amm writingg thzz mch...dnt want to hurt myself more..likee thzz nlyy i m vry sensitivee in thesee all stuffs

Soo amm left with broken heart.. bttt still u know I lovee u.. .. bcozz thizz all thing doesn’t matter me… for mee lovee izz abt consistency… its evryplace same.. like hw a mom loves her child.. whatever d situation izzz there…

Like hww I lovee myy gadgets..

For mee lovee izz this… never changes.. btt for u it changes right… I want to comment abtt urr new relationship too.. btt cantt…

Btt will always hope tht thzz time hvv a long lasting relationship J

Answer myy few questions I hv answered u a lot:

Do u ever loved me??

U were playing prank?

Or do u hv a backup plan??nt me then he.. bcozz its nlyy for a year… rght

Orr u r taking revenge tht wtt happened too  u first time u will do thss thing wth evry guy…

When waz the last time you felt that u love me???                                     Y u didn’t told me abut him in dec..

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itssa rapidd questionn soo watever comee inn mindd writee tht.. 

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dontt ever think that i hvv nyy hard feelingg forr youu...

i will alwayz love u.. ndd i gotta idea tht if u still think tht it wzz friendship.. thnn itt will be greatt forr me... evrything will bee samee like earlier.. whtt say??? doo anss.. thzz questionn alsoo.. thzz izz ntt rapidd qq.. feel free too sayy.. wtever izz in urr mindd.. bcozz i dntt hvv nyy thingg too bee broken.. evrythng broken ..