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Wondering from where.. to start..

Well untold things are always unheard.. so hvv to writee ..

The story beginss in face book.. thnx to  mark zuckerberg.. wthud him I wud hv never meet my first love..  err..

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I hvv alwayzz tried to express myy feeling.. butt shee always told tht shee don’t want too spoil our frndship… soo hvv controlled mah feeling tht I wontt tell her tht I lovee u..

I donno hw I feel in lovee wth herr jstt by chatting.. I didn’t cared hw she looks.. hww shee thinks.. how many X she izz having.. well I didntt cared hw shee treats me.. the only thing I wz knowing tht I loved her…

 I used to always wait for her..whn shee wil be on9..

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Soo finally one mree time I tried to express my feeling  about her  tht hww I feels … iff shee iz ntt talking wthh mee… shee wzz like a drugg .. whole thzz semm myy nghtzz were appointed in fb… well thtt nghtt I hvv to makee lotss off  assignements.. ndd we hdd a plan for movie too.. in d weekened.. so my frnds gvee me a suggestion to ask her for a movie in this way I can meet herr too. Bcoz till now I hvv only meet her in fb..

She refused again.. well I wzz again hurtedd.. btt sacrificed 4 herr frndshipp. Thought shee felt  bad … soo ignored her.. ndd triedd too bee wth her like a friend only..

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Donno wt happened to her on 27 th nov.. shee started talking in a strange way.. tht day shee gvv me her no….***************

Ndd fiinaallyy I wzz drowned in herr love… never hdd suchh a strange feeling ufff I know Itt wzz lovee.. nor I wzz able to eatt.. nor sleep.. even I wzz nt able too take breath.. theee dayzz were  sleepless.. nights were speechless.. nww we switched too cellphonee text messaging….

Ndd calls… loved herr voice…

************* soo on 29 th nov .. we meet …. Awesome xperiancee… wzz soo fearfulll… we talked ndd talked *****************

we talked ndd talked ass iff like sheee wzz makinggg mee to fall for herr more nd more… evnn I wzz also knowing tht I wont bee ablee to come upp .. iff shee leaves me

.. itt wzz m9 first.xperiance . ndd for herr it wzz “X”… I mean I donno…

well  one nghtt talking wthh herr I asked tht rr u in lovee orr wtt…  well thee way she talks alwyz made me feel tht shee izzz also in love btt don’t wanna accept… may be bcozz off previous breakup.. soo I hv told nott to ans.. tht question. Well shee answered ndd it wzz yes.. ndd after thtt smethingg smthingg happened.. a lott fghtt.. I cried a lot…. Bcozz I refusd tht I lovee her…

nxtt day shee too refused thtt she told in ttht way.. I hvv told its okhh .. if u wanna bee till frndshipp.. okhh… I can do anything for u….

nWw iTZZ foR U bAby

nww its turning pt.. on 17 th dec shee wants mee too leave herr till buss station.. I wzzz hvingg fever too tht day… butt for her.. I can do anything…

tht day I saw herr shee wass looking soo beautifull.. I wanted to tell herr tht baby I love you plzee dontt goo.. I wontt live without you.. btt I dontt want her to bee disturbed soo  I didntt doo anything.. I wanted too kiss her 3>..

I donno  btt som1 wantss tht myy heart shudntt be broken… ii know a lott off thing wzz running in herr mind…  >>>heyy christii… u remember wtt happened tht dayyy… for thee whole nghttt  arundd 3 we chatted.. tht day u flirted too mchh.. as iff u want too show me ht u too love me…

Btt tht day u were bzyy in some other place.. too.. donno myy guesses r alwayzz true for u… I didntt slept tht nght… I wzz confused…

I don’t want  my heart to be broken .. I know amm very sensitive …. Whnn I  camee too lovely I didntt fall for manisha bttt …… circumstances made mee too show tht I liked her..  bt it wzz trapped..  well I shudntt be tht mchh hurtedd bcozz I wzz act not nowingg her nor I hvvv talked in phone.. soo shee wzz like a unknown grll.. too me…  not knowing anything abtt her…

Bt it took mee arund 7 month to recover…  because off the drama …. Orr

But for u .. I wzz in lovee…wthh u tht also full drugs type… iff this time myy heart will break I wontt bee able to trust anyone… I will loos e myy life…

Soo I remained silent.. I wzz nt bale to understand wtt act u want… (btw amm knowing wtt u want btt dnt want u too hurt..by telling)

Again on 8^th jan.. something happened in urr life.. btt u didintt told me anything tht day u told mee t ht u r drunk ndd u lovee me…

Btt u hide lotss off thing.. well u were bzyy wthh som1 else too….  Tht made me too confused.. well I ignored all this urr stuffs… bcozz I wzz blind in urr love .. soo little mree time I gave to u.. too think tht wtt act u want….

Ndd u thought ndd thought… act  nott thought  u were knowing earlier too.. for u love izz only for 1 yearr … after thtt nthing…..  well I wzzz happy in tht too… for mee too bee wthh u matterss…thtss itt …

I dontt care hww u treat me..

Thee time I wzz ntt talking with you.. u were buzyy wthh some1 else.. I amm knowing tht too… u donno hww myy dayzz hdd gone..

Unable to sleep unable to concentrate… tee only thing wzz  I dreamt abtt u… byy both closing as well as opening eye…

I wrote many thing abut u… I hvv never written wthh myy blood for any1 tht I lovee u… btt I vv written donno hww..madee a card 4 u wthh mahh blood too..:)

I teared tht paper on d day u told tht u made bf.. tht made mee cry bcozz all myy faith wzz brokennn..

U also know every guy @ thzz agee wants too bee physicall wthh grll.. u know … kiss ndd all… btt I sacrificed everything 4 u… bcoz u told mee too bee away frmm her…  ndd I got d best conditions… @ least kisss too shure… ndd whoo dnntt wanna to bee kiss a tht mch seductive grll..  evnn a commited guy can slip.. btt I refused.. I amm nt telling tht I amm gud…  I amm telling tht I cared for u…

Bcozz I thught u wil understand me.. btt u went away ndd away…

I want to tell u tht wateverr inn urr life wzz running .. I wzzz knowing almost everything… butt I neglected everything bcozz I wzz in lovee with u…. ndd now also I think only about  u… I lovee  u… 3>

Abtt mee myy heart izz full broken into pieces cantt beee recovered… I know I will never fall in lovee again bcozz every girl izz same…. U were the first ndd last…in my life ndd  given a nice lesion… ndd thtt too soo much big.. will alwayzz wonder y u did soo..

Jeenee kee abb wajahh hee nahee haii… except studezz..

After knowing evrythingg abtt u… thtt wtt u think lovee izz… ndd wtt all stuffs u were hiding wthh me….  … u know I still love you… its ntt tht I like ur personalitity. Or character…or u look seductive to me. ,,Its jst simple thing th I jst lovee u… ndd for u I can doo anything..

I know alott abtt urr personall stuffs too.. I think god izz wthh mee soo hee wzz letting mee to know everything.. remember the astrologer “jeana”.. shee wzz correct… if u want to conform ask any question abt ur past or future…. Amm damn sure itt wil be correct

Btt I amm very sad .. nww in college    I wont bee able to trust any girl L

All r fake.. btt still I lovee u..ndd will be only for u..

Btt hww too forget thee moment I spent wthh u..??? u will bee surely knowing ans off this… bcozz u were soo mchh eperianced.. u alwayzz told for u its common..breaking eart nd all,, bt for mee no recovery this time…

U ask too many question now ans myy ndd call me…

Do u ever loved me??

U were playing prank?

Or do u hv a backup plan??nt me then he.. bcozz its nlyy for a year… rght

Orr u r taking revenge tht wtt happened too  u first time u will do yhss thing wth evry guy…




the most impp when wzz d last time u felt love for me.. do u want me to be in contact like earlier orr go awayy/jst like a unknown friend..

Well u made me a bad boyy.. bczz myy 1 attitude changed.. will tell u later on…

One question izz still in myy mind tht hww I know everything abt u… tht also correctly…

Wtever I guess izz true…

For ur nww bf also I hvv guessed.. wontt tell u.. J bcoz I know its correct..

I didntt liked ur activity , nor ur dressing sense,nor ur attitude.. bcozz I dnt hv to do anything with tht.. the only thing wtt I know izz I love u… from heart.. ndd thtt I hvv ntt seen.. like hww wee hv ntt seen god”

Aacha hai na.. I wrote jstt now for u…

Hvv a happy ndd long lasting  relationship..

Mere too abb kch honee see raha…!!!

Btt we can be in contact iff u want.. bcozz I will be alwayzz eagred to know wts happening in urr life!! Ndd we can share… any infoo to…

Waisee abhi takk to tunee kiaa nahee kch…..

Maii hee unnecessary apne baree me btata raha!!!! urr soo mchh time waisted..